Show it and Tow it.

I don't know what it means, I just heard it on a song I was listening to.

Ok, just because I have a nude lady on my journal don't mean I'm gay. I see where men see women's body as a beautiful thing.. and being a man.. I guess you'd wanna play with it too. Now, ain't that stupid? Well, if you're a male.. I guess it isn't.

Nothing doing at home, I just did the usual.. clean, wash dishes, cook.. spend time with Grannystinky. He asked for a walk after he wakes up.. so we be going for a walk later.

"Midnight Train to Georgia" Gladys Knight. It's on my iPod now.. I bought only because it reminds me of my Fosterfather. One morning he took my foster sister and I to school, and the song came on.. he sang that song. So, every time I hear I think of him on that day. He is even in my prayers every day...

Mentioning him on this daily journal.. it's seems so disrespectful with all the swearing.. I'm gonna clean it up.

Now, I got "Whiskey Drinkin Woman" from NAZareth.. Crap.. Ok, I'm going mega multi-personality. I wonder if this is what happens to adapters?? I bet they gotta whole lot of ~ahem~ going on. This song reminds me of the Rowdy Days.. I plea the fifth here..and no double jeopardy..

Anyway..

For the last few days, I have been feeling sad inside. Could it be all this Michael Jackson thing?? Maybe.. when I hear his songs.. I just feel so sad.. Heck, I haven't even thought about his music since late 80's? I'm not even a fan.. I just like that one song.. "Farewell My Summer Love". So wayy.. I just been feeling sad.. and I hate it because it's so close to my anxiety attacks.. Gawd such a weakling, huh? To tell you the truth, I rather be mad and hateful to cover up the feeling.

Since I lost my son, I hate that feeling of being sad.. If I don't get it under control I cry.. and I don't like crying.. then of course, I get depressed really bad.. I just hate it. Everyday I wish I could die just to be with him.. cuz' there's isn't anything better here for me to stay around.

Well, crap.. You know when you observe people so much.. you really begin to believe we are just intelligent animals..

**** BAD NEWS ****
My hubby's hair is like baby soft.. when I married him.. O I loved his hair.. it's so full and soft.. I would on purposely sleep a bit higher just so I could feel the softness and it was just wonderful. Well, it's gone.. hubby has Alopecia Areata. I shaved him bald tonight. He still looks handsome to me. Love level hadn't dropped either..