That just done killed it!

Last night we went to work with Grandpa. I hate to see him go off into the deep reservation without us. At least, if he needs help we can be there to help him. It just helps me keep myself sane. I hate worrying about him like I am now. He is about an half an hour south of Shiprock in the dark. I hate it, but he loves the job. I hate the fact he works so hard.

I wanted him to get a different job with less hrs. BUT, they offered him another deal. I really wanted him to have the other job really, BUT if he likes the offer, the counter offer.. then it's his deal. I personally hate it that he works so hard.. he doesn't get paid by the hour, he just thinks he has to get them all.. then he goes to sleep.

So Nways.. after we got the vehicle up on the mesa in Rock Point, Arizona area it was dark. I saw something on the side of the road about 75 yards up ahead. I thought it was the horse, usually rez horse they just stay on the side of the road. Well, I started seeing more movement as we drove closer.. and then I saw them.. they're PUPPIES.. about 6 month olds with their momma.. I screamed and put my jacket to my face and scream "NO!! NO!! NO!! NO!! It's PUPPIES!!" I muffled my cry and then I felt them under us.. it was like stepping on a snake.. soft bumps and that's it in less than seconds.. I heard Jeff getting upset and trying to talk to me.. I was busy begging Heavenly Father to take the puppies without pain.. and I say "WE were sorry, please bless and love them.." O gosh, it was so horrible.. I cried, and I just kept praying for the puppies. I have never ever ran over animals, except for Jack Rabbits (Two of them) and that alone took me days to recover. So, yah.. I'm still feeling very bad and ever so sorry..

I thought Hubs was picking up Troy at Grandma's, but he calls right after school and asked me to go get him.. He said his father (My brother) said it was ok. I looked at him and he says.. Yah, really. I says ok.. and brought him to town.. Same thing tomorrow.. I guess he's staying until Sunday. I invited him to NFL Giants game, and Hubs invited him to our Sunday Brunch.. and then HE wanted to go skating Saturday with his new girlfriend. Yah, second day in school and already has a girlfriend. He also joined Marines JROTC. We were so happy for him. I told him I hope the war will be over so I won't worry so much.

I better go to bed, I have a little one going to school tomorrow.. HIS FIRST DAY as a BIG BOY!! Oh, it's just so grand.. loving it.. I got all his school stuff ready..

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Hubby wasn't where he said he was. He confessed he was gambling in Colorado, NOT somewhere south of Shiprock. And he came home early morning the next day. I had to drill it out of him. I knew something wasn't right, he tried to act like the truck 'broke down' on him. Then miracously came to life! O' what Bullshit!