Too much time on my hands..

I don’t understand this whole Human thing. Dying is a wonderful experience and nothing to fear. Actually it’s so oblivion that you don’t even look back, if given the choice to proceed to your final destination, or return to your Human state. I bet you more than anything, you would turn your nose up and keep going forward. The weird part is you don’t even consider those you are leaving behind, because there is no fear or loneliness, you are definitely at peace.

How I wonder do these God Fearing souls so scare of dying? For all I know, we should be thankful we are finally going on to the next journey of our lives. Just because we see a bimbo screaming and acting dumb when she is about to be killed, the whole world think death is a traumatic experience? Heck NO!! That’s just plain idiotic. I would be more than thankful to actually die this time and not return.

I spent a day watching babies being born on Discovery Health Channel on television. The parents want so much to have the baby born, naturally. Out of the whole two hours of their documentary did I hear one mom say “Hey Sweetheart, Hello. It’s nice to meet you finally. Welcome to your family.” I thought it was the most appropriate thing to say to a baby. She held him and kissed his forehead gently. Kind of left me in tears.

I think a lot of this mentality is due to explicit gruesome graphics of death, a lot look so horrifying. In reality, once you can’t handle the stress you’re unconscious (blackout), your body may respond how it may but mentally you are not there. Thus dying is painless and not scary. I remember when I got hit behind the head with a hatchet, I saw stars then I blacked out.. But moments later I found myself running down the street. I wasn’t screaming or anything. The sticky warm feeling on my back was blood, but I thought it was sweat from running. See? Whack, you see stars or maybe just a simple black out.. And then ka poof you’re out. Game Over. Nothing to it.

Now, this place you can make it hellish or heavenly for yourself. You live a righteous path and do the right thing in life. Your day will always be blessed and people you chose will always be righteous. Then idiots like me.. Drama.. And partying.. Well, at times it’s hell. And other time.. It’s still hell.. Then we have extreme drama.. Seriously HELL business.. SO you pick your destination here on earth. It’s your will. Like they say, it’s your free will.

This is not a conclusion of my thoughts… For the moment I am still on medication so I may still be rambling on about nothing. One day, perhaps through meditation I will try and make sense of things. I may not ever get there, but it’s fun chasing the elusive.