January 31, 2009

Everyone is napping right now. We were all up late last night putting the red wagon together for Grandson. He wanted so much to take it for a test on the 'walking bridge' he fell asleep before we could get there so we went home.

I bundled him up and took extra precautions on any possibilities of him getting any worse than a common cold that's ready to attack him. I had a touch of dryness in my throat and I took care of it right then and there. I don't like being sick.

This picture is of Arthur the ferret, he is so sweet and still a baby compare to Douglas. Douglas likes to be mellow and watch the day go by, until Arthur jumps on him and acts like he is being attacked by him. He would jump side ways, backwards, and make these funny hissing noises. Sometimes he will flip over backwards and twirl himself silly. I usually put one of our raggy bath towels, and place a couple of 25lbs weights on each end of the towels and let them climb up and down into the spare bathroom tub. Although they have a big cage, they really need their exercise. I also let them think they are attacking me, it's hilarious. Their back hairs stand up and they start jumping at ya.. HEY.. maybe they really think they got something going, huh? LOL

I was just sitting here thinking about Troy. Troy is another boy we tried to raise, but now we just help him every now and then. It's better that way. Speaking of that, we (Hubby and I) were discussing about the values of family relationships. Mine is easy.. the more money you throw at them... the more you're liked.. real ghetto. No money, No visitation. Right now.. no money honey, stay the heck away... His family is about communication and long distant relationships. We all don't visit with one another, not even holidays. WE have friends over for BBQ and time well spent. No strings, they go, we go.. weird huh? But I was just thinking about these 'relationships'. I have to say, when someone is getting too close I have the tendency to get away. I just get spooked by them, don't ask me why... I'm just weird like that. You get too close, I don't bother ya anymore. And that is usually the end of it. So back to Troy.

I got a email from him, and I thought I would go visit his 'page' on one of those things like myspace and place a comment for him. Instead after responding and visiting his page. I just realize he is still the same young man he was before we got him. And I thought about all of the time investing in teaching this child, really this is who he truly is. Then I thought about myself. Am I who I was since I was a child? Beneath all this getup.. who are we really? I just refer to my calling and live up to it.. but there's always a speck of something that makes you unique.. NO, not like looks, fame, and all the other crap.. it's you. There are times when I am listening to someone yap about nothing worth conversational..all I see is a skull yapping... teeth clattering nonsense.. just meaningless garbage of their philosophical concepts. Yeah, it's a big turn-off. When you say, speak your mind.. a lot of them... just laugh.. a nervous on the spot laugh.. why is it so hard to say what you want?