Hubs and I had a big fight.. just verbal a few days ago. I took a trip to Colorado Springs for the day to just get away. He said we would do marriage counseling. Let's see how we do that this time. In a way, I'm still fuming.. he thinks in time, I will forget and things will resume as usual.
I hope we move to Colorado Springs. I want to get a career going, and live there. I told Hub, if he doesn't persist in working with this relationship, I want to live on my own. That's that, and I have nothing more to say about this relationship. The way I see it: I just have the title as a 'wife' and am his 'best friend'.. ok, there's big gaps there.. I would rather be single and living on my own.
In a lot of ways, I hate this marriage. It sucks big time, and I am very frustrated.. that escalating to other issues. Yeah, they stem out, because You just ain't Happy, and dying to get out of it. We shouldn't even be together.. I think this marriage died two years ago.
Before the shit hit the fan, I took a drive to Bisti just to take pictures of one of my favorite places here. I was still angry with Hubs for lying to me on our "Anniversary" day. IN a way, it was just my time, no one else's.. I drove all over the road... you rarely see a vehicle, so I backed up and mosey around all over the road to get that right angle for the camera.
I drove aimlessly looking for a right angle... But I was careful not to dump my coffee.. love my coffee.. taste good and does me bad, like someone we know.. Ain't that something?? I love things, and people that do me bad.. huh!
All this time, I called the area BADLAND, and I thought I was the only one. Chaw!! I read it on here.. doi. I was driving..and I just now noticed this sign. I was looking for a lone hidden hogan that sits side of a hill.. I slammed on the brakes, I almost kissed the steering wheel.. I backed up..Plump Plump.. my fat was banging against my ribs.. owwww.. I bounced around.. Yay, the coffee sat just right in it's holder.. Me and the camera bounced around.. Then, here we are we took pictures..
Right across from this is N36 highway. Once you go on this road you are on the Navajo Reservation. Just like where we live, right on the hill is the Navajo Reservation.. Ain't that weird? Anywhooo.. when I get the SHOTGUN, and going by here.. I look at all those faded crosses and wondered what cemetery this is.. is it the welfare? the missing? the forgotten one's? the loners? Even the fencing is unkempt.. Looks so lonely and forgotten.. I've noticed a couple of new crosses.. or they appear to be newer.. maybe 70's? 80's??
So, then I bow my head and pray for the souls of this cemetery. Whether they done wrong, or left behind. May they find peace, happiness, and be blessed in their new lives..
Hubs is home now, and we are getting ready to eat.. so I will 'edit' this later.
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