This ghouly business came and went great for Grandson. While hubs and I were in deep crap with each other.
OMG.. I don't know what emotions to display.. It's so crazy.. I cried, I got mad, I got very angry with him I just about knocked him silly... If I could only say... No, it's not anything to do with 'another woman' or in his case 'another bimbo'.. No where in that nature.. It's just too much to bear.. I have chills, and I feel like I've drank mega caffeinated drink.. at the same time my chest hurts so bad. I just wonder how can a person do this to his loved one. "Loved"??? I must be crazy, he doesn't love me.. I'm just like a best friend.
I don't know if I want to write, but I have to say.. I must be nuts to be in this marriage. I have to start doing something for myself and Grandson.
I am considering, despite their lack of effort, letting Grandson's parents come back and get involved in his life again. I wish I had a solid marriage, instead of this crazy insane one... that way everything would be rolling like the way it should.
OMG, I can only shake my head and take a deep breath... Why is it so hard to leave? I just keep trying and trying, and the longer I hang on and try to fix the mess he gets us in.. It seems like he looks for the next project and build it bigger...
